IM A MEAN AUNT ASHLEY! :(

So Im laying in bed trying to sleep but I cant cuz I feel bad! I'm a mean aunt Ashley! Let me explain... So earlier I was checking my e-mail and totally forgot about doing the Relief Society Program for our ward for Sunday (tomorrow) and I didn't tell anyone I would be out of town. So I was trying to re-create a format to email someone, I didn't know who yet, so they would have a program. Well, it wasn't working so well and I was getting upset. Meanwhile my nephews were just being crazy boys, which they are most of the time anyways, but tonight they were being EXTRA naughty for some reason and the BYU game was on (I dont care for the game at all) and everyone was yelling and just making enough noise to make me go NUTSO especially with the kids running around screaming. There's a computer room upstairs and my brother-in-law who just got home from his mission, bought a brand new really nice laptop yesterday and told me to keep the kids out of the upstairs. So here I am clear across the house in a dark and somewhat quiet room trying to get my relief society program figured out and I hear someone say to the boys to get out of the computer room, which I had already told them earlier more than once not to play up there. I jumped up fast to go make sure they werent torching the brand new computer and maybe I got a little carried away cuz I ran up the stairs and grabbed all the boys and told them to get their butts down stairs! Dax was the last one that I grabbed and I gave him a little tap on the butt, this is the kind of tap that guys give each other as a "good game" tap at the end of baseball games, so it totally wasn't even hard. Well as I tapped him he tripped and it kinda looked like I pushed him down the stairs and I think Tara, his mom, thought I pushed him down, which wasn't the case but I still feel really bad. So, Tara I'm sorry I would never push Dax down. I may look like I'm being firm with the boys but I'm really not. The truth is I'm a push over and I'm sorry.